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all ive noticed so far is i drink a lot more water these days.

DEPRESSED.

just did my first round of tapping.. i hope it works. theres SO MANY THINGS i need to do it on. im not sure if im thirsty/hungry NOW or if i was before? erm.

i hope this works. it did when i was 15. why did i stop again?

i need to move to japan. for real.

Life is killing my creativity. I wish I could be happy doing 9 to 5 at a desk and my goals involved climbing the corporate ladder. I really need bree bac

k. I'm tired of all this.

ok, have decided, when i lose my first 15 im going to buy myself

this
(or) this

and one of these



and when i hit 30 its gonna be one of these :

silver

or navy

ill figure out something awesome for when i hit my goal (40).

so i was coming home lastnight around 1030. there were two cars stopped right in front of the entrance gate to my apartment so i stopped in front of the gate (because icouldnt get in!) and some dude got out of the car farthest from me to talk to the lady in the car in front of the gate. i figured he was telling her to leave out the other gate (the one to actually LEAVE the apartment) and then got back into his car. so they backed up, i opened the gate, and the guy zooms past me (sounding like he scraped my car terribly, hitting my side mirror) and i am laying on the horn swearing (cause i JUST got my car fixed at the body shop two weeks ago) and then the lady starts going straight into my car and i lay on the horn and swerve out of her way. wtfffffffffff drunk/stupid people. i got the assholes license plate and i was about to cry when i got up to the apartment. so joey and i went down with a flashlight to check out my car and there were no scrapes! somehow! the only thing was that he shoved my side mirror into my car (which is fine because my car mirrors move in and out). god that was so shitty and ridiculous i want to kill people. the end.

I want to spend my days doing something I believe in. I want to go to bed exhausted.

i miss myself :(

the hair, the clothes, the creativity.

come back, bree

i need to learn to make bento's like these.

new years res -
learn to make kanzashi
drop 40
get fit


already started!

also, this is my new bff

me forgotten wellbutrin magically appeared in my cabinet. Anytime now, meds.

I notice being off my drugs the most in the morning because I am grouchy and upset and angry. Even on weekends so I can't blame it on work. Good thing so

my son, ender cain mccokes. xaviers brother.

Heading to vegas after 12hrs of work and no sleep. Death

this weekend was really really really good.
i got to go to taft and meet up with muna. we spent hours talking and thats basically what im putting my good weekend on :)
it was very very good to see her cuteness and just talk for awhile.

i also got to see chirag and dustin and drink with them (for about ten minutes!!)

it was good seeing joey. really good. and ive decided i am in love with his friends. they are so genuine and... warm and loving and sweet to each other. and silly. and cute. i want to kidnap them all.



a photo of my boys:





i am exhausted. we got in at probably 230 this morning and i dont think i fell asleep till 4. goodnight.

drunk.